I miss a lot.

Bloaty the Pizza Hog

2007-07-17T05:05:11Z

Ugh... I ate hamburgers today. Yeah, plural (2). Plus one of the least satisfying hot dogs I've ever eaten.

I haven't had a hamburger in over a year (meat= a few months), and I'm pretty sure I'm going to avoid them even more earnestly from now on.

*Makes little, sicky noises*

Unpleasant.

OMG

2007-03-24T04:15:32Z

I know this isn't the most masculine thing in the world, but I don't give a damn;

I just want to say that
Baby Pandas Are the cutest thing in the world. It almost hurts. Ouchies...

Look at the size of it's head! *cuteness pains*

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raedryn @ 2007-03-18T13:25:00

2007-03-18T17:34:38Z

Whenever I speak it's a 'stream-of-consciousness' sort of thing; It tends to get me into trouble.

Shakespeare must have known I was to be a graceless fool.

raedryn @ 2007-02-12T23:19:00

2007-02-13T04:32:00Z

This sucks. I had two full days of Sarina... and now that she's gone I miss her more than ever before.

Two Weeks. I should be able to manage. I'll have to, but that's not the point. >.<

I just wish I could kiss her one more time in the interim. But, of course, "if you give a mouse a cookie..."

Long story short: I'm in love...

raedryn @ 2007-02-03T01:19:00

2007-02-03T06:31:13Z

That bullet in the back of the throat is looking better with each passing minute.

I've felt like vomiting for a few days now... but it's no illness... at least not in medical terms.

I just want to be happy, but I'm alone almost all the time. I can't make myself happy anymore; I'm fucking sick of myself. I hope this is just a phase and my life just seems worthless.

When the hell am I going to live?

raedryn @ 2007-02-02T01:19:00

2007-02-02T06:27:06Z

Yeah, so i never post... Meh.

It's not like I have anything interesting going on anyway. I went out last night to NoHo [with free drinks :) ]... I ate a lot today [doesn't bother me in the least]... and not much else. I don't get to hang out with Lauren and Co. Friday night/Tonight because I'm covering someone at work, so I have a weekend full of nothingness ahead of me.

Speaking of Lauren... I have to get Another Gay Movie back to blockbuster before it's late. By the way: Terrible movie... fortunately one of the boys in it is definitely very attractive.

Maybe I'll settle in and play Megaman between cigarettes this weekend. Unless someone has a better idea.

I can't wait for my week with Sarina.

EMO, don't bother reading this!!!!!!!!

2007-01-09T05:41:54Z

I just had the best two weeks ever. I went to New Fairfield three times for a total of 5 days. I've never spent so much time there. I loved it, but of course it had to end some time...

I can't even count how many times I've cried since I left CT last. I'm in this so deep; I can't imagine losing what's become my life.

I miss her so much. She's 5 hours away and I haven't talked to her all day. I need to see her...
I've gone through so many different moods in the last two days; I don't even know how I feel anymore. The distance messes with my mind. I get so sad when she's gone.

I love you Sarina. I'm all yours...

Four years CANNOT come soon enough.

I'm sorry to anyone who reads this... I'm pretty Emo. But at least I can spell.

Muah

2006-12-25T07:33:16Z

Well... I think my terrible illness is finally subsiding. Antibiotics save the day again!
Today a 30-something gay man on facebook tried to hook up with me. He was really sketchy about it, too. After 3 Facebook messages and about 2 minutes of AIM conversation he was looking for my address. I don't need a stalker right now.

Well, I have to be at blockbuster for 10 hours on christmas, starting in 9 1/2 hours. Then it's my birthday. I think I might be going down to see Sarina that day. That phrase has subtly changed in meaning since the last time I went. No Comment.

{I just want to say I love Bayside. I've been using Winamp all night, but I keep going back to their songs. Especially "Megan," (their version is slightly better than the Smoking Popes' amazing original.)}

Down with the sickness[es]

2006-12-19T05:04:09Z

God dammit. I've been sick for at least a week. To be honest... it's actually two different illnesses. The first was splitting headaches for about 5 straight days; my current malady involves practically everything else: Sore Throat, Stomachache, Fatigue... oh yeah, and more headaches. I'm beginning to feel like a hypochondriac.

And my appetite left the building with my health. I don't really want to admit how little I've eaten. From yesterday to today I've had three bowls of cereal and two bowls of [normally] yummy vegetable soup. Unless cough drops and aspirin have calories in them... One can only hope.

So much for trying to gain weight.

It really doesn't help that I essentially didn't talk to anyone this weekend. I would amble out of bed to check my charging phone to see if I had any messages to no avail. It was cute in a contagious sort of way.

In lighter news... I'm glad to say I finally bought another pair of girl's pants! I absolutely love them. I guess I'm a size 8... but they end up too big for me after breaking them in. I'm afraid to try a 6 though... because, frankly, it would be weird to be 5'11" with size 6 pants on.

That's about all I have to say right now. I'm going to call the girl to see why I haven't talked to her all weekend. I'll wish myself some luck.

raedryn @ 2006-12-13T22:57:00

2006-12-14T02:57:54Z

Some woman gave me a Christmas present at work today. It was odd.

I guess the story goes like this: I help her find something pretty much every time she comes in. Once, she was looking to rent The Nightmare Before Christmas. As it turns out, we don't have any copies at all (It was probably sold to someone because they decided to keep it... who wouldn't? ^.^). Anywho, I brought up that it's one of my favorite movies.

[Cut to new scene, same store, weeks later.]

She comes in and walks up to the counter. Innocuous enough. She asks if I can help her find Van Helsing (Not the best vampire/werewolf movie out there... but who am I to judge?) I help her out and she asks "Can you keep a secret?" Sketchy, Yes.

Blah, Blah, Blah. I get a copy of Nightmare Before Christmas free of charge. The secret was that no other employee gets special treatment. :P

That's pretty hot, if you ask me. Even people who don't want to get in my pants think I'm cool.

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I really should have made a long story short.

I'm back!

2006-12-04T08:12:05Z

I don't really bother writing anymore... but if anyone was wondering: The trip to CT was fantastic. The every kiss was always better than the last.

Strangely, I'm not too concerned about the fact that she's forever away again. I know I'm in love and that's all that should matter. Everything else will fall into place in due time. For better or worse.

There's an inkling of fatality in my mind.

raedryn @ 2006-11-29T01:11:00

2006-11-29T05:11:44Z

I'm visiting the girl this weekend.

Nothing can stop me this time... with the possible exception of divine intervention. I doubt that will happen, though.

The only thing that matters right now is that first kiss...

raedryn @ 2006-11-24T02:05:00

2006-11-24T06:05:50Z

I worked at the Northampton Blockbuster tonight. Yes, on thanksgiving night.

It was really slow after the rain stopped, so we watched Nacho Libre and Cars on all the TVs. I was paid time and a half to watch movies and basically nothing else. Life is good.

Oh, and at least half of the people who came in appeared to be gay. It was pretty fantastic. <3

raedryn @ 2006-11-23T01:39:00

2006-11-23T05:39:37Z

Wow, You people don't talk much, eh? Apparently, I haven't been missing out on too much. I still like to have my fingers on the pulse of the community, or at least somewhere on the forearm.

I've grown up quite a bit in the last few months. Oh sure, I'm still a bit anti-social... but I'm working on it. I'm actually starting to make plans. It's a start.

Coincidentally, if anyone reading this would like to make plans with me, feel free. I don't think I'll have any offers, but at least the weak attempt was made.

Another day, another disappointment.

2006-11-17T06:30:24Z

First, the good news: I was boom-bangin' with the kid as recently as last night! For those who have no idea what boom-bangin' is, or who the kid would happen to be, too bad. Ha!

The bad news: Another New York trip fell through due to poor planning and general idiocy on my part. No Panic! for me... no Sarina! for me. Until I visit her in connecticut, that is. ^____^ <333333

I saw running with scissors today. It's really not the best movie out there. Don't see it unless it's tuesday and you're only paying five dollars. Apparently I think working with movies all the time makes my opinion matter more than most on the subject. >.<
I saw it with Mia Santos, whom I haven't seen for a long time. It's just as well that I haven't, I suppose, as we really don't have anything at all in common.

Anywho... it's wicked early, and I have some calls to make today about an Emergency Brake that's keeping me cooped up in this state, so I'm off to the terrifying land of nights and dreammares.

I'm offering you my body and you're offering me semantics.

2006-11-15T04:46:02Z

You know, there's not really a lot to do on myspace... but that doesn't stop me from checking it a thousand times a night. I take breaks from playing all of those terrible games that I missed during my long connectivity-drought.

And, completely unrelated:

I'm buying another car. One that can make it to New York, then connecticut, then back to massachussetts. That all adds up to more than half a day of driving... but at least the middle journey will be time well spent. :D

I realize my LJ isn't the most popular one out there, so I'm going to look for more games. :)

*yawn, stretch, pass out*

Yawn

2006-11-13T00:21:10Z

I'm fairly certain that this, this right here, is the first LiveJournal post to come directly out of my house. That's exciting news to me. Woot!

That aside, I'm not really sure what's new with me. I've been getting along really well at Blockbuster. I'm not going to lie, it's a ridiculously easy job. The people there are generally pretty eccentric, which is a huge plus. I love weird people; they're just so much easier to talk to.

I'm going to New York this weekend to see Sarina. ^_^ Oh yeah, and a Panic! at the Disco show, but that's just an excuse to go up there.

Don't panic, more posts from me will actually be good for you. Scrolling past entries is a good way to raise your heart rate. It's excercise.

I should stop now.

This will get everyone excited for no good cause. Ha!

2006-04-18T05:05:19Z

If you aren't too interested on wasting your most limited resource, then I suggest you turn back now. The following will be rambling in it's purest form; free of any sensical impurities.

I'm actually making a post. Not to say anything of value, really. These words won't change your life, nor will they help you find God. If you happened to be looking for one.

Anywho, I'm seeing Alkaline Trio in less than two days. That's hot. Sadly, not everyone who was supposed to come can make it. *tear*

Oh, and I get to see Panic! at the Disco in July. On Bryan Chaplin's Birthday. The poor, poor bastard.

Umm........ being 1 AM, I think i will end this entry prematurely. A shame, I know.

AAAAgggggghhhHhHHhhHh..! yes.

2005-11-01T16:32:21Z

Halloween was an eventful night after all. I was surprised to have a conversation with Ari and Ken and not have it be gut-wrenchingly awkward. Kinda nice.

I need to get my tattoo finished in the next few weeks, and start looking ahead to the next one... maybe a half-sleeve. With spooky halloween junk on it. Like bats, and SCARY PUMPKINS! And nuns with fat, spicy sausages. Also Reverend "Rock-em Sock-em" Carroll. Actually, there's no way in hell I would get a tattoo of a nun and a sausage. Maybe the reverend though.

I still want to get a tattoo of bass... from megaman. Yeah, that's hot and you know it. At least it's not a ninja turtle.

There's a cute girl across from me <3... I'm at HCC right now in Pat's class. Just lounging about while these people do actual work. Suckers. I'll eventually be here for the same reason, so I've got to live it up while I can.

I've done nothing but smoke, read, work, sleep, and eat for the past few months. In that order.

It's amazing that I can write so much and have so little to say. But, sadly it's true.

SURVEY!

2005-07-13T10:25:18Z

Do it or don't, up to you.

What would you do if I?
» I committed suicide:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:

What do you think about my?
» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Clothes:
» Mannerisms:

[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you poke me?
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?
[32] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?

raedryn @ 2005-07-13T05:01:00

2005-07-13T09:03:25Z

I am soooooo wearing girl's underwear right now.

Kinda comfy, if I do say so myself.

Truth or Dare is quite entertaining.

Just Checking In

2005-06-22T05:09:54Z

I worried too much about things I shouldn't be afraid of.

If something good happens, I'll be happy.

If things stay as they were before the... weirdness... I'll be happy.

If this breaks everything, than at least I still have the fantastic memories.

And, for that, I thank you with all of my heart.

Despite the fears that have yet to be proven true or false, I love my life for what I've been lucky enough to be blessed with. The few friendships I've been able to hold on to through everything.

Thank you everyone.

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Man, has anyone else noticed how I Love to write stupidly cryptic things? I <3 me

Figment.

2005-06-19T00:08:38Z

All day I was thinking all of that happiness couldn't be real, that I was dreaming. It's hard to really believe that could actually happen.
Craziness. Absolute craziness. I don't know if I should be OMGHAPPY or scared shitless for my future.

raedryn @ 2005-05-31T22:10:00

2005-06-01T02:07:31Z

Ari pwnz my s0ul.

Y Halo Thar Buttsecks.

2005-06-01T01:37:13Z

I'm at Ari's house right now; stomache full of Mac and Cheese, and mind filled with fond memories of this night. Platinum Fronts, indeed.

The day was practically uneventful until I went to meet Ari (and Co.) at the mall. We meandered through the mall for a time until ultimately deciding that Salvation Army would offer more variety. Actually, it's just really cheap. Mmm, frugality.

Afterwards, Ari and I left the crew (Sam and Cat, btw) in the dust to blaze our own trail. With Munie in tow, we made our way to the park to talk about everything from our shared past to Tyler's hilarious outbursts.

Oh... and queefs. Assuming that's how you spell it.

It was precious, the day that is. And so was she.

That wasn't the whole night, but I can't go writing a long-winded paragraph about our hobo orgy. Yeah, there are more hoboes than you'd think in Ludlow... and they're hung like homeless elephants.